Changes, Manfriends, etc.

Something has to be said of the simple fact that time seems to pass much faster when you look at past blog posts. I don't quite know how to sum up what has been going on in my life since the last time I wrote on the interweb, but I thought I might show a little photo montage to make it easier.

College Graduation:

 Roomies Post-Graduation Vacation:

Backstreet Boys Concert and After Party (Where I had a picture with three of the BBS and a selfie with AJ):

 Visit to a Wolf Sanctuary:

General K-9 bonding time:

Other Shenanigans:

Yes.

I graduated.

I have gotten over the shock, but there is definitely some sadness that continues to linger.

Especially as I continue to fill out job applications.

I texted my mom today and I quote: "If I could punch job applications in the face, I totally would." Needless to say the job hunt has not been a bundle of joy. And even though I am a ball of stress just thinking about how I don't have a job right now, I will look back on this crazy summer with appreciation. This summer has been a whirlwind of crazy adventures and wonderful changes.

Let's list a few:

1. I no longer live with my roommates or three years. This is not only really hard for me to get past, but something that I have no choice but to get over. Eventually. On the plus side, one of my roommates now has her own apartment in Pittsburgh which is not far from me. I have already made a weekend trip there and am planning another as we speak. My other two roommates are in Atlanta and (will soon be) in Seattle. Basically we are all super far away from each other and not down the hall from each other anymore. I can't stress how depressed this makes me when I let myself think about it.

2. I am now living in Columbus, Ohio. Mind you, I do not have a place of my own yet (that would necessitate a job) but I am living with a wonderful couple who I met through working at my college. They have graciously allowed me into their home, for an unlimited amount of time, making it easier for me to focus on finding work instead of freaking out about being a hobo (although that is a HUGE fear of mine). 

3. I am no longer single. If I could sing it from roof tops or mountain tops or any other kind of tops, I would. I met him at school, a fellow Education major with the addition of an English major, and while I tend to be very outgoing he is more reserved. We balance each other out very nicely and he is just plan fun to be around. All the feels...

4. This summer I have managed to read more than is healthy.

5. I learned how to quilt.

6. The number of antique shops I have been to is more than any elder person has gone to in their whole lives.

7. I need my own dog. I've had dreams about it. That's how you know it's something you really need.

8. My obsession for the Food Network has been confirmed. However, I also have a new obsession with YouTubers. Specifically Connor Franta, Ricky Dillion, Tyler Oakley, and all those people. I think I just like to live vicariously through them because they have such cool lives. Also, we all know we love to get the details on other people's lives. Let's be real.

9. My sleeping patterns are getting really messed up.

10. I want to buy a film camera. Badly.

Now that we got all those things out of the way, lets talk about the future for a moment.

Next week is actually going to be really exciting. On Wednesday, my Manfriend (my boyfriend, but I have a friend from high school who doesn't like the term boyfriend. We are adults, after all. We aren't dating boys.) comes back to Ohio (he's been with his family all summer) and we will probably be seeing How to Train Your Dragon 2 that very same day because we are both obsessed. With no shame whatsoever. I saw it by myself the first time, if that tells you anything. 

On Thursday I am having lunch with my favorite professor from college and then later that night I am going to a free - I repeat FREE - concert in Columbus featuring Kongos and special guest artist. I am so pumped. I have recently become a huge fan of the band and it felt like this concert fell beautifully in my lap. It was fate, I tell ya!  

Even tomorrow is going to be fun. I'll be hiking in Hocking Hills, which is this beautiful spot that has a bunch of caves and all that jazz. I'm gonna be strapping on my boots and getting hardcore about some caves. Spelunking, anyone?

Alright, Sandman, where the heck are you??

I would just like to point out that it is currently 12:04am and I am awake.
This is an injustice.
You would think that after having gone to bed at a very late hour last night (morning) and waking up early-ish this morning I would be granted the permission by my body to sleep right now.
Nope.
I lay in bed....thinking about the air so as not to think about the work I wasn't able to get done today....
and nothing.
Not even a hint of slumber on the edges of my consciousness.
Just a lot of wide open eyes.
Restless limbs.
A mind so tightly packed with thoughts, concerns, and general anxiety.
How is anyone supposed to sleep like that?

It's simple: they aren't.

So I get up, check off another thing in my planner, wish I was sleeping, and decide to write a blog about how annoying it is to not be able to sleep.
Sorry 'bout that, for whoever is reading this.
A girl can only read textbooks for so long before her eyes begin to cross.
It's an honest problem that needs to have some sort of remedy.
If there is one, I have yet to find it.
Dang it.

On a more exciting note....nope. I don't even think I can be exciting at this time of night.
Morning.
Whatever.
Have I mentioned how terrible it is that I am going to be a real adult soon? Because when I look at the calender and it tells me I only have four more months of school before I graduate, my mind is thoroughly blown. Seriously. An atomic bomb goes off in my head every time I think about how close my graduation date is without having any idea about where I will be, what I will be doing, and how the heck I'm going to pay for wherever it is I end up living. I'm pretty sure I will have an ulcer by the time May rolls around.
If these feelings are normal then I apologize to anyone younger than me for what you will have to go through eventually and really appreciate everyone older than me who has already lived this uncertainty.
Bravo to you. Truly.
Because I feel like a slug every time I think of what I am supposed to do with my life after college.
Or to put it more plain I feel like I might upchuck.
No big deal.

Right.
That was pleasant.
Hope y'all have been good.
I'm gonna go try to bore myself to death in order to fall asleep.
Wish me luck.